Fukuyama Masaharu の Heart

Hatsukoi (”はつ恋” First Love) ~ An Alternative Interpretation
Music / Lyrics: Fukuyama Masaharu

This desire
Even though I know it will engulf you in pain,
Even if it should hurt you so, I still want to have you

The new bliss that we have grasped for ourselves
Is now being ripped apart by these hands
There is a place (we have) to return to
There are people (we have) to protect
There cannot be a more stupid mistake, I know

We can no longer be friends
We cannot be lovers again
Although I understand,
But this one true feeling
Please, let me forever call it my first love

Once again,
I am alone reading yet again, the letter you wrote me on your birthday
This meagre dream of yours, has ripped open my heart

The scars you have from our love, cannot be erased
To leave them untouched is a form of kindness, that was once my belief
But no matter how important it is,
If we cannot use our words, or a way to show it out
Then whatever kindness we intend, bears no use at all.

I have searched long for it and if this is Love
Then I have solved the riddle of Love
Although I cannot have my wish,
But this irreplaceable yearning
I will embrace it as I live on, alone

When am I ever going to
Have an answer to my love?
Once again, just like that day,
Will I be able to love someone,
Can it happen again?

We can no longer be friends
We cannot be lovers again
Although I understand,
But this one true feeling
Please, let me forever call it my first love

At least, let me call it my first love
Forever let me call it my first love

(Fan translation, for reference only)

~ Fan translation. For reference only. ~

This interpretation, thanks to xiaoxin, takes the view that both parties have since moved on to new relationships. But these are now being jeopardized because he doesn’t want to let go of his love. An interesting view, since this seems also possible under the context of the original Japanese and the Chinese text.